and I am just now getting to it. I've come to the conclusion that if I actually sit down to blog when I want to, then I wouldn't have a major amount of things to blog about when I sit down to do it later!
I was reading some other blogs on how people are using blog trackers. I thought that was a great idea, just to see how many people were looking at my blog and where they were from. So I started using one, and noticed that a lot of people were actually finding my blog by searching unpaper towels on google. It got me thinking, maybe I should start selling them again? A lot of people out there seem to interested in it. When I started making them to sell, not many people seemed interested, at least in Statesboro. Maybe others outside of our little town have actually heard of them and are interested in them. The people that are most interested in Statesboro are the ones who know me or come over to our house and see them on our countertop. What do ya'll think about unpaper towels? Have you heard of them, like them, would you ever use them? I'm interested to know other's thoughts.
I was struggling a lot this past week (week before last now) with getting pregnant. I think this is just one of those things that's always going to be a roller coaster of emotions. At the beginning of the month, we're both super hopeful for what the month is going to hold. Will this be the month it happens?! Then, the second half of the month is a waiting period wondering if it's going to happen or not. Then it doesn't, and I go through all of these emotions of sadness, frustration, and loss of hope. I know a lot of it has to do with the hormones that are already going on at that time, but it's still just one of those things that I feel like I'm always going to struggle with.
This month I noticed Brice was more upset than usual. I think as more time passes, the more he's wanting a child. When he found out we weren't pregnant this time around, he expressed to me that he was just as upset about it as I was. I know that he's always been upset when we thought we might be pregnant and weren't, but for some reason this time it seemed different. He seemed more sad about it not happening than normal. However, he is still very strong and positive about us getting pregnant when it's God's timing. A lot of times its very hard for me to be positive and hopeful about it, so it's very helpful to have him there as a support.
I'm also extremely thankful for the women God has put in my life to support and encourage me through this time. I was able to talk to one of them last week about it and just pour out to her what was going on and the emotions I was going through. She prayed for me and was tremendously encouraging. She told me things from an outsiders perspective; things I never noticed which helped put things into perspective for me. I don't know what I would do without women like that in my life. It is super hard to go through something so emotionally draining and not ever knowing when the emotional cycle will end. I can't imagine going through it without other women in my life to talk to.
I've been thinking a lot lately about writing a book. Well, not so much a book at this point, but sort of like a journal of mine and Brice's story. I've told so many people about how we met and what has happened in our lives, and almost everyone I've told has suggested we write a book. People love to hear stories like ours, and everyone says it would be such a good book. I'm not sure if I actually want to write a book, but I definitely want to write it all down and be able to look back on it and read it. I would love to have something like that for our children to read one day too. I'm just not sure how to get everything I want to put it in down. There's so many things and events that have happened and are happening now that I want to include, but how do I ensure that I get everything before I start writing it out? I want it to be in order and if I start writing then remember something, I won't be able to go back to put it in. That always happens when I go to write things out. I think I know everything I want to put in there, then I'll remember something I wanted to add but forgot. Does anyone have any suggestions as to how to do this? I'm think I'm just going to brainstorm in a notebook and try to remember as much as I can. Then, when I'm pretty sure I've gotten it all, I'll start writing it out in a nice journal.
Brice had off all this week for fall break so we took a night and went to the fair. It was SO much fun. We went with a group of friends, and we rode a bunch of rides.
We rode this awesome ride called the Crazy Mouse. It's one of those mini roller coaster type rides where you are in the little car and it feels like you are going to go right over the side of the tracks. We went on this ride the first time, and loved it so much we went straight back in line to ride again! Brice had the great idea of make a video of us while riding it.
So much fun!
